One of the articles I have been dying to write since starting my blog up again is the viability of making a living as an artist and relating it to my own feelings and experiences. It has been a boggy experience as of late trying to make a career from the ground up. It may be a negative attitude seeping in after a few years of small growth as a career seeking artist, but it doesn't seem like making a living is as possible these days in the creative field. Moreover, I don't know if I care about making a living at it anymore anyway. I have primarily experienced burnout making the same merchandise over and over again. Production work just simply sucks the soul out of you if you are looking for rewarding creative ventures as an artist. Some of the best moments are when I have been in the thick of a large project and enjoyed every minute of it. There's nothing like the moment where everything comes together. For example when I first completed the transformer, Homage 1.0, I was transported to being about the age of 10 flying it around the room making jet noises. That is the experience I look for and what is rewarding about creating art for me. It takes you someplace else, just for a little while. Escapism is my basis for creating art, creating something new and exciting, at least for myself. The thought I have lately is that I need to get back to roots, so to speak. I need to create for the love again and be inspired by an idea that sweeps me away to the places I wish to visit. I am starting to think I was misguided to think that I could make a living as an artist, at least the way I perceived. It requires a business mindset that takes the fun out of it all. Plus you wind up creating for other people instead of for yourself. That being said, commissions that I have been lucky enough to receive have been great learning experiences and I wouldn't trade them for the world. I simply had more fun when I created art for art's sake, or just for simply myself.
In this way, art truly is selfish. You are lucky if anyone likes it besides you, but at least you enjoyed creating. This approach may not make you famous, but it will make the best artwork you can possibly make because you enjoy the process and you are enthralled. Maybe I'm justifying not approaching the difficulties of making a living in the real world as an artist, but I feel that if you make great work, love what you do, and put it out there for people to see, the world just might bend to your will. Even if it doesn't bend to your will, you can be happy making what you love. So, I am not out of pocket, I am not quitting. I am just reorienting my thought process on how art makes me happy. I am already looking forward to the next project.