Whirl of Random Thought

I know you're thinking, it's about freakin time.  I don't know how many readers hang on my every word, but I know it's been a long time since I have written on my blog....hmm, seems to be a pattern here.  Lately, I have been feeling that all of my efforts get me somewhere, just not where I want to be.  I always think of random ideas to promote myself like "hey, I should make furniture" or "hey, I should send out custom designed folio invites to galleries".  Truth is about 50 ideas float through my head during every day.  I have a problem committing to any of them because all I want is a sure fire way to succeed with my artwork.  It is extremely hard to promote yourself, research business practices, design a website, price your work accordingly and actually get any good artowork completed.  It drives me nuts.  I need an assistant, but I can't afford an assistant.  I need an art agent, but I can't afford an art agent.  I wouldn't even know where to start.  I read articles on www.Entrepeneur.com to see how people starting their own business handle all of the nitty gritty details.  It is a great site and there are actually articles on there how to market and sell art.  None of the resources I read actually tell me a sure way to succeed at becoming a professional artist, because there is no sure way.  I have had a moderate amount of success marketing myself locally.  I've been on the morning show, I've been participating in something called the First Friday Art Trail and have met with positive feedback and support.  It just isn't enough.  I get fed up with going to my day job, feeling like a hamster on a wheel doing the same thing over and over again.  I go to work to pay my bills so I can afford gas to go to work so I can pay my bills.  This endless cycle eats away at me and some days I can't stand it.  I know I'm preaching to the choir if you are an artist.  Every artist either goes through or has gone through the same thing.  I seek no sympathy, I do it to myself.  It is a calling and if I don't answer, I will be more miserable than trying without reaching my goals.  So I guess I just keep trying and charging through until something happens, or I give up.  But giving up is never an option. Apologies for the randomness of this entry, I just needed to vent.